The Middle of God's Heart

People often use expressions that deal with being in the middle of God (ie. the middle of God's will), and I feel there's a lot of truth to that. When you are in the middle of God, every single part of you is fully embraced by Him, and you are deeply fortified within His walls. From that perspective, being in the middle of God is a great place to be.

Tonight my eyes were opened to what being in the middle of God's heart looks like. God's heart is like a viscous substance - not quite solid, but not quite liquid, resembling the consistency of goo (bear with me through this imagery). Things of this nature have the ability to hold items of certain densities at certain depths. Albeit slowly, heavier object sink and lighter ones tend to stay closer to the surface.

When I am in the middle of God's heart, I am in perfect balance between all the forces that are pulling on me and vying for my attention. But distractions often come in undetected; I fissure, air begins to seep in, and I start to rise. It's not until I find myself skimming the top of God's heart, wondering why I feel shallow and light in my relationship with Him, that I even notice how distracted I am.

Sitting in church tonight I felt shallow and superficial with God, and even in my interactions with others. When asking Him why, he responded, "Because, Amie, you've allowed too many distractions to fill you with hot air and you have floated away from me. How can you feel substance if you're skimming my surface?"

At that moment I prayed for God to pop the air bubbles that had crept into my life, and almost immediately I felt myself sink back down into His heart. I realized that being in the middle of God's heart was a balancing act. It's not healthy to feel burdened at the bottom, and it's also not healthy to be lighter than air. To be in the middle of God's heart takes emotional and spiritual depth. He wants us to be weighed down with His glory, and know that in His freedom we will never sink.